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Honey decided to surprise me with an overnight trip to the Hilton on the beach. He had it all planned out, kids taken care of the whole deal. We really can't afford it and thats part of what made it so sweet. Sometimes you have to put time together ahead of everything else. It was a really great break and we had time to talk about some big things that are going on. We have been having a bit of business trouble, who isn't in this economy? We are trusting God that he didn't bring us this far to leave us. We started doing the Jim Sammons finiancial seminar and that is such an eye opener! It isn't just pay your tithes,save ten percent blah blah. We all know that stuff, and who do you know who (aside from tithes) really has enough money to do what the experts reccomend? He is teaching Biblical principals and in a way that I have never heard it or thought of it.
Sunday we went to church and it was really great! His message was on Esther. It was a really good sermon and included alot of good points. The part that I particularily felt like was just for me is he pointed out that Esther had Hayman at her dinner table. She had dinner with him and the King. She never addressed Hayman,the man who wanted to kill her uncle,and her people. She carry on and make a scene. She stayed focused on the King and allowed him to fight her battles. How many times do I waste my effort focused on the problems rather than the promise? I have found myself at my own dinner table with my enemies and wasn't as wise as Esther. I read there that they bathed in oil for six months and in perfume for six months, in prep. for one night with the king. When he would pick his bride. Everything in the Old Testament is a shadown and type of the New Testament. I believe that Oil symbolises the Holy Ghost and the perfume is the praise of the saints which goes up like incense before God. They prepared for a year to meet this earlthy,carnal,heathen King. We want to pull a drive through, hit church on Sunday a.m. sing a song or two, wave our hand in the air a little. Whew, then its naptime! We should be preparing everyday bathing in the Holy Ghost, sending up praise to our King because one day we are going to stand before him and he is going to choose his Bride.
The childrens leaders asked if middle child could be a "praise leader" they need some older kids that are comfortable praying for others , praising in public ect. Do the dances to the music that kinda stuff. I am overjoyed! She has some learning difficulities. You'd never know it unless you asked her to read,but its a real problem to her self esteem. I took her out of Sunday school for a year because the teacher was horrible about this. She would put her on the spot to read alound in front of the other children. She gave her a worksheet and said she couldnt' have a snack if it wasn't finished. She and I had some words and I took her out of that class. It breaks my heart to think of how my child must have felt. That crossword puzzle with all these big Biblical words may as well been in Greek. In front of everyone, hungry and not getting the same snack everyone else got. This happened to her IN CHURCH! Our church had a big childrens church program on Saturdays. They had alot of little girls leading worship. The "elite" so to speak. The same two families pretty much do everything. She asked if she could help and was told they had enough girls. it really did hurt her feelings, like everywhere she tried to get involved there was a roadblock. I am overjoyed that she's been validated this way in a church setting. I was really worried that all church interaction was negative and was going to hurt her spirit long term. She has such a presence,a dignity that is unusual in children. She just wants to serve Jesus! I am excited for her to be used. She has had to set at the table with those she considers enemies for a long time in church. Of all the things I regret about where we were the thing that is the biggest is the damage it has done to this particular child. that one sundayschool teacher in one service has had a devastating effect on how A felt about herself. That Queen Bees thing that goes one within the girls her age and that adults allow it has effected her as well.

Thou preparest a table for me in the presence of my enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. Psalm 23:5