We have been attending an interdenominational church in our area. I don't know if we'll stay there, I was raised Assembly of God and I'd like to go back to it. So I'm letting it ride. Today was Communion, we missed last week on account of death so I didn't know about communion. My husband and son both partook but I just couldn't. Something in my spirit isn't as it should be, it isn't like some BIG OL SIN!!! Its just something isn't centered, I'm looking for balance. I love Jesus, I want to be very sure that I'm not operating in rebellion in anyway. Right now I feel like there are some UPC things that I'm a little unsure of. I want to be sure,in my own heart and not just act out of rebellion. It sounds silly to have to go through a big spiritual rigamarole about hair cutting ect. Honestly, I have to. I am being very careful to examine things on their own merrit using a Bibical measuring stick. I feel a little spun around. The Apostolic church we've always attended had a huge outreach function this weekend. I am seeing alot of pictures and videos in my facebook and it makes me homesick. I know that I have lived in bondage to the church for a long time, I know its going to take time to unravel the mess thats made. But I see pictures of people that I loved, and they are leading people to Jesus and it makes me want to go back. Just wash my face, put on my big girl panties and put up with whatever else happens so that I can have my old life back. I am not cut out that way though, I am made out of way too tough of stuff to be spoonfed manure for the rest of my life. Ingnorance is bliss I think lol..I know some pretty stupid folks and they are pretty happy. I am going to keep plugging along. I know there is somewhere God wants my family to be, there is somewhere he wants to use me. And that burden with be easy and yoke will be light. Anyway, I skipped communion today. I really liked the reverence that was in the place this morning. I prob could have gone to the alter but it doesn't really feel like that kind of place..or at least it didn't today. The music was beautiful, and I did feel the spirit of God. Not the jump a pew, knock your hair loose kinda spirit just a slow move. It was nice to go and marinate in the spirit of God and not feel assaulted and beat over the head.
1 Cor. 11:29 For he that eateth and drinketh unworthily, eateth and drinketh damnation to himself, not discerning the Lord's body.
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IGNORANCE IS BLISS! If I could count the times I've thought that. :) However, one ignorance isn't. Ignorance of our Savior's Love. YOU can be winning peeps to the Lord without having to go back to the manure. They're all around you!
ReplyDeleteYou know what...I'm reading through your blog again. God loves you because you are wanting to know Him and what He has for you. You are not desiring to follow a "mold" of what have you. You are being the woman God created you to be. That is so awesome. I am so excited to see what God will show you.
ReplyDeleteYou are hungering for Truth!!