This whole blogging thing is a little scary. Heres the deal, I am having way more thoughts than I want to share with my "real life' if I write it down maybe it'll help. My family is leaving the United Pentecosal Church. When you take your kids out of public school to homeschool they go through something called "deschooling" and eventually start to color outside the lines again. I am dechurching. This whole thing of the UPC is a works based salvation. It is subtle. Nobody SAYS your going to hell for wearing makeup, but the idea worms its way into the back of your brain. Sister so and so will comment about how someone used to be so "Godly" and now has backslid and we know cause she had on "face paint" at the Piggly Wiggly or whatever. A new convert hears that from a woman she respect and wants to emulate and she will wash her face. Nobody SAYS your going to hell for not being on board with this program or that program. But the preacher will bang you over the head about getting on board or get out, don't murmur in your tents until you aren't so sure whats about salvation and if he gets to stamp your pass to heaven. I am going to blog about what its like to leave, what its like to find another church. About how Sister Better Than You snubbed me in the Chilis last night because she's too spiritual to be loving and Christlike to a backslider. I am gonna write this whole journey down because maybe somebody else is trying to figure out what the next step is.
STEP ONE: And thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind, and with all thy strength: this is the first commandment. Mark 12:30
